A woman with depression doesn’t always appear sad. In fact, she might be bubbly, accomplished, and concerned about her appearance. There is this filter applied so no one can see the inner chaos that is silently crying in desperation.
And for this type of woman, admitting they need help can seem like an insurmountable obstacle. You don’t want to be more of a burden than you already feel that you are. You don’t want to ruin your kids’ view of you as a good mother. You fear a mental illness diagnosis equals a death to your ministry. You’re scared that If you tell what is really going on inside, people will be disappointed.
Pride sneaks in and oftentimes we don’t even see it.
I remember sitting in front of a psychiatrist as my husband praised my strength. The doctor quickly popped the bubble of perfection I hid inside of as she said to my husband: “Her strength is what makes her so dangerous. People like her basically make themselves be strong and neglect their insides.”
A neglected inner life, encased in a meticulously polished shell, leaves a hollowness that is not God’s plan for your life.
If you have been raised to believe that showing weakness equates to failure, let me tell you that in the Kingdom of God, it’s the one who embraces their weakness that proclaims His worth through their humility. Don’t hide your weakness; don’t waste it. Trust in God’s allowance of mental illness as a trial that chisels and beautifully shapes you for your good. With humility comes wisdom. Through Christ, the miraculous can happen - a mentally ill mind can also be a sound mind. My mind with depression and PTSD can also grasp scripture, pursue holiness, have wisdom, and a flourishing relationship with Jesus. And yes the medical world has helped me immensely, but only I could choose to follow the Holy Spirit’s prompting to boast in my weakness and humbly depend on God.
“...the humble [the teachable who have been chiseled by trial and who have learned to walk humbly with God] there is wisdom and soundness of mind.” Proverbs 11:2 AMP ￼ 𝘗𝘳𝘢𝘺𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘵: 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱, 𝘱𝘳𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘎𝘰𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥.