“My inner being is in depression and my heart is heavy, dazed with despair.” Psalms 143:4 TPT
“Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me; my heart within me is desolate.” Psalms 143:4 KJV
“My spirit is weak within me; my heart is overcome with dismay.” Psalms 143:4 CSB
“Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed and weak within me [wrapped in darkness]; My heart grows numb within me.” Psalms 143:4 AMP
𝐃𝐚𝐳𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫.
I’m guessing I’m not the only one who intimately relates to this Psalm. This morning, as I was up reading before my family woke up, I came across a verse in Ezekiel that reminded me of the power of the God I serve...
“Then the nations that remain around you will know that I, the Lord, have rebuilt what was demolished and have replanted what was desolate. I, the Lord, have spoken and I will do it.” Ezekiel 36:36
𝐆𝐨𝐝 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝. 𝐇𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞. 𝐇𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐇𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭, 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐇𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭.
In my experience, medical and therapeutic interventions have indeed stabilized my brain and have been used by God to save my life, but only HE can rebuild and replant what has been demolished and desolate, due to mental illness, in me spiritually. Medication that increases serotonin levels in the brain can have a good influence on my mood and emotion, but only the Holy Spirit within me can produce true joy and hope.
As I look forward to Christmas, I am so thankful that Jesus would humbly come to earth to save me. To save you. Because of His sacrifice, we can intimately know the Father - the God who rebuilds and replants even the most desolate wastelands in darkness. Jesus in the light that will never be overcome.