Good & Evil
Desire for death masqueraded around secretly in my mind as if it would not only be a sweet escape for me, but a relief on my family.
“Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who substitute darkness for light and light for darkness, who substitute bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter.” Isaiah 5:20
“You are of your father the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he tells a lie, he speaks from his own nature, because he is a liar and the father of lies.” John 8:44
There was a time when my mind called evil good and good evil. Depression, which still remains a thorn in my flesh, was untreated and the brokenness in my brain became the gateway the enemy used to tempt me towards despair. Desire for death masqueraded around secretly in my mind as if it would not only be a sweet escape for me, but a relief on my family. I believed the lie that I was a burden on my family and maybe some of you are believing that lie too. The father of lies spoke to me from his own nature. He has been a murderer from the beginning and while there were years I believed those lies - I quietly called the evil of suicide good - Jesus has opened my eyes to see and believe and tell others that satan does not stand in the truth. When we believe him, we are not standing in the truth either. Everything about him contradicts God. Everything about him is evil. Everything about him is pitch black darkness. Everything about him is bitter.
But Jesus. Jesus is the Light that darkness will never overcome. Jesus says He is the way, the truth, and the life,” being the complete opposite of our enemy. Do not forget who you belong to and whose character you can cling to. While depression can leave me with feelings of sadness and prone to hopelessness, when proper treatment is paired with the discipline of renewing my mind in scripture, even with a broken brain, I do have the resurrection power - the achieving power - to see evil as evil and good as good.
“We know that everyone who has been born of God does not keep on sinning, but he who was born of God protects him, and the evil one does not touch him. We know that we are from God, and the whole world lies in the power of the evil one. And we know that the Son of God has come and has given us understanding, so that we may know him who is true; and we are in him who is true, in his Son Jesus Christ. He is the true God and eternal life.” 1 John 5:18-20.