I'm Such a Hypocrite
“I’m such a hypocrite,” I said with tears rolling down my cheeks as I slammed my dresser drawer closed. “Who am I to share anything about the mental health of a believer?”
It didn’t take long, however, for me to notice the dark pit my mind was peering down. A spiral into a pattern of sin can start with believing just one lie. 𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐥 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠; 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞.
Just because you falter, does not mean everything you’ve learned goes to waste. Just because you’ve entertained the sin you declared victory over does not mean the victory wasn’t real.
So what do we do?
⋒ We ask the Holy Spirit to help us recognize lies
⋒ We remember we’re human & give ourselves grace
⋒ We embrace our weakness & depend on God
⋒ We admit to a trusted friend when our thoughts begin to spiral
⋒ We get back up, brush ourselves off & keep going
⋒ We take care of ourselves - read your Bible, eat healthy, get moving, take the medication, stay in community with others
⋒ We never ever for one second doubt the kingdom purpose we have, even with mental illness.
If I waited until I was free of struggle to walk in my calling, this ministry God has begun (and many of you have encouraged me to do) would not happen.
My prayer is that you never see my posts and assume I have it all figured out. Instead, come alongside me as we continue to figure it out together. There is strength in numbers and united children of God are a force to be reckoned with